Another Sensation.

I will expect another thing
Another feeling and sensation
Another whole story.
For this, I get hurt
For myself
While I stare at the distance
The horizon I have
Which is not what I crave
Not even what I need
Only what I can have now
I can not even get closer
Even though being already inside
I like to be in control
It is a liberty I enjoy
I adore to have control
It is a way of breathing I enjoy
I love
- in a way so intense and wild -
- so out of the regular type of loving -
To fuck in control
It is a through soul experience I really enjoy.

What a bittersweet desire.