Swamped Feelings

I write again about these swamped feelings

the feeling of loneliness,

of not being heard entirely,

the caring I miss,

the intimacy I do not find in other relations lately.

I know I do not need to handle so much weight,

but this time again I will have to.

And all of these had been making me overthink.

Is it me indeed? Or just a phase?

Do I have to accept that and let it be

or change something in me?

Usually I do all the processes by my own,

or with a friend or two.

Lately, I feel I have not been enough,

or any of the friends I have.

All I know is that

I have been needing somebody professional to talk about that

and show me a clearer way.

Although, it takes too much time to get by the city ​​hall health care.

So I long for.

And I wait, and I hope it will come faster somehow.

Perhaps my luck can help me to.

As so as my patience.