to write/to pour

so long without pouring

I do not even know how am I holding it up

and not breaking down

breathing

realising 

ending

little things will always be that one hand to guide me

and the force in me, the other one

the strength I will never know the real scale of 

I need to focus on this new phase 

to come faster 

to let go of ties that blues me 

instead of encouraging 

to design my own days and nights

not relying on people who just thinks about their own well and wealth

to write the next days with my own hands