repetitions and repentance

I just wish you really cared

but it was another thing 

you fallen in love as fast as moved on

without straight thinking

another running

another instability in the system

partly destroyed

embracing it as if it is completely ruined 

I just wanted you to care 

about yourself, about something else

but repetitions and repentance 

I just wished you could really care

about me, about the outside of the bubble

of this darkness you have been dwelling in 

every day you step a little more 

inside this black hole

in your chest

do not mourn yourself yet

you just think you are an errant

but you are alive

this distance is another lesson

first by you, in inconstance and silence 

leaving crumbs on the way

now by me, trying not to go astray

nothing that I do can change you

you must realize you need to change for you 

turn the rudder, feel the wind flow