this comes with a burden

I have been wide awake

and this comes with a burden

for the matter of accepting what is incarnate 

instead of what I created inside my mind

the mire is to go straight forward 

though I can not help but wonder 

the complexity of both of us

so intrinsec and different and alike 

I can not understand

also this compels the hunger for the mystery behind

coming along the inherited savior syndrome 

and in the end 

they are the same questions

disguised as others

that we are living over and over again

until the lesson is learned

once for all

in this paradigma

every day is exactly the same

just lacks the interpretation

you may feel at home but I do not want this no more 

I tried yet so I do not see any change I did 

we control way less than we think we do 

a burden I give up diving into 

the reality is the side that does not show

blinded by the high tides we fail to see below