(in)constance

I am crazy but

I am not going insane

Not this time

Although I am misplaced today

Deep in my thoughts train

It is normal feeling like wanting to be loved

For someone other than myself 

Yet I runaway as farther as possible 

When the other side comes with a tsunami

In my already rough sea

I need the calm after the storms of life

Not every ocean overflow 

That are not all mine

Even when I embrace them as if they are

Here I bring honesty

self perception with all intents and purposes 

And I can not accept less than that

I just want to be warmly cared

The edge does not belong to my plans anymore

That drowning until you lose yourself

And those worn-out days had become lessons 

Instead the part of the comfort sorrows

I lied my head every night

I am no martyr, I am no saviour

We are in opposite phases, yet so self chases,

but you are all on inconstant wretched reveries

And I am all in the constance of steady waves and savor