Genetic Curse.

Sometimes I wish I could die
Only for some seconds,
Only for a moment
Sometimes I deny the lie
Only for a glimpse of forever
Only for I be able to teach something to someone
In this life.

What is wrong?
What is wrong with me?
What is not?
Oh, I am done with it all, I am weaker
By those who say they are my protection
When they are just my curse.
-fucking curse I got into-

I say, I learn, I cry, I learn, I love, I learn, I take the burden, I...
...am tired of only me learning here
I want it to over, I just want it to over
For me to be able, finally,
To follow my path
Without those things that break the heart,
That leave my mind weak,
That leave me with the mad desire to kill myself...

...only for some seconds,
Only for a moment
Oh, this insane fantasy of fixing who I cannot
Only for a glimpse of forever
Only for I be able to teach something to someone
In this life.