Before Me.

Throughout my childhood, I imagined, I created, I smiled,
with the innocence of another day.
I never thought it could become a mistake in the future.
It is a feeling of repentance,
But I am learning, I am learning, I am finally seeing...
...my way free before me.

I am going after what I can change,
Redo what I need, undo what makes me sick
And forget what makes me want to lose this life
Not completely, but for a moment is quite enough
Until I stabilize, until I understand and know myself.

It is difficult to live with someone who just does not care.
Very hard your words not being heard,
much less your cries.
What could be just a single step to redemption,
Heading towards salvation, becomes hell.

But I am fighting, because
There is a light in front of me,
And I am going after her,
As always putting out what torments me,
Over any corps that interferes.

This drunken hope I drank so much,
And all these obstacles that insist on being on my ground,
Make me who I am today.

Even though deep down inside, I do not enjoy that much,
Suffering for those who I care, that also do not enjoy.
But I have to learn, learn more, learn much more
To feel well with myself, as with everyone around me.
Find my way home I never found before,
Find the sky that inspires me
Find my safe-guarded spirit.
I am learning I am learning, I am finally seeing...
...the green light before me.