little big things that delivers me balance

some things I miss
things that delivers me
a balance of living in the day by day
the sky and clouds in flames,
like a huge bonfire 
and the sun himself
setting on the horizon behind
some bad architecture
but still so visible
the moon rising
with its light in the floor of my old room
always shining so big up there
where I can see and feel
in every and most needed moments
the vision I had of my window
the sensation of little liberties inside a cube of good energies

it feels kind of funny
because where I lived was a chaos basically every day
here should be a starter to a better living
but it is not the sensation it brings
it is a cold breeze that lives here before me
maybe I came in the anxiety of meeting a new chapter
without solving some important things
for I am such a young head
and there are realities that bruise me easily
my heart bleeds
and my breathing gets rough
just high enough
where I can not control
wounds I swear I closed
are now open and hurting
I do not feel like myself
once more

maybe it is just a phase before a better one
to be used as learning
to pass through the heavy feelings it brings all at once
for deep on me I know I will meet my sun again