overloaded

sometimes I can not go on

and do everything on my own

it is just too much for my head

for this period or the whole day 

I do not know what to do

what is left of me are feelings

or nothing at all

this instants sometimes seems to last forever

although

I know it is a symptom of tiredness

and I need to alow myself to slow down 

never dare the consequences of overloaded entrails

there is no use in overcharge when it is already overloaded 

I have not the same energy everyday

I am not in the same phase everyday

I do not identify as part of a machinary 

and I care, sometimes a lot

being seen as different among many forgotten heartful ones

if you say you are a piece of the machine

and not the human in fact you are,

the only thing you can do is

come in to self

open your chest

watch it from a different angle

suddenly you will realize 

you are human

and you need time and care