In the coil

I have so many things

I do not know what to do with

Maybe I could get rid off

or resignify the means

but fuck I am stuck

inside of me 

somewhere 

anywhere

but here 

in present

is where I want to be

yet I am just dreaming wide awake

once again 

in the coil

of chaotic 

I dwell

wobbling 

conscious

troubled

in the process of becoming something greater