Abuse.

for you it was just one more night 

a temporary relief 

for me it will haunt me until I die

even though years passed by,

with resilience 

and profissional help 

there is no how to forget what you put me through

we need to name it as it is:

abuse

the use of force without permission 

an invasion of the body you thought you had control 

just one more day without any respect 

with your study and profession

you should help people to get better 

instead you choose to break the limits 

and play with me as if I was a doll 

I never went out for justice

manual or legal

because I know how it can be so much worse

the invasion, the looping

any kind of peace would be much far away

for there is a chance of it all being in vain

when a man has some power and money

you who are judged

coming out as the culprit in the story 

they will never know 

they will never even try to be put in my place 

first I tried to understand why

blaming myself for being stood still 

the silence was my semblant 

but inside was a non-stop turbulence 

then I discovered that dissociation is very normal on situations like this 

of fear, terror and disbelief 

so I understantood it was ok to not deal with it at that moment 

it is a process

a cycle 

to allow life to happen

inside I knew I would be better some day 

even in despair I need to move on

for my own health

to make worth my time on this earth