do you really care?

do you really care?

or just when is vantageous for you?

I ask you already knowing the answer

because that is what is so clear 

on your acts and words, babe

caught up in your own web

trapped inside your head

keep ignoring your heart bleeding 

keep this distance to lose even more 

get lost in another mayhem 

to have a story to tell later 

your air of superiority

hides a mass of insecurity

these feelings, these illusions

these distresses, these nonchalantnessess

are taking me far away

I did not wanted to, but you obliged me

deep in me

I wish you could not be so blind 

I wish you were not just waiting calmly

that I return and forgive again

but dear, I am tired

those baggages are too heavy

to try to help you carry 

there is a hole in your chest

a lot is missing

but you got used so

it is not an important matter for you anymore

just as I am not worthing much to you no more

I wish all of these outflows were lies

that everything you did was just bad dreams

and we could wake up and move on to another golden day

but here we have ugly hurtful truths to asseverate 

(what do you believe that can aid you to see the good in you?)

dear, I am tired

to be confused, to be amazed

at the same time all the time

your influency has not been so good to me

maybe something will rearrange 

but I am not waiting calmly

limits are there to be spoken 

and we are both on different edges now