sicker

here is a day

that kind of day where I did not want to get up

at least not so early

all I could wish today is to be within my shell

taking care of the house inside and out

not being forced to do things I do not feel like doing 

not being swamped in the passivity of the round

the day where I crave I could have the reins 

and keep my head up 

people does not understand that we are not all equal

that we have not the same level of energy

not physically nor emotionally

and that it is all right 

some enjoy being in the automatic and high velocity all day

some not

and the not comprehension of this and or them

makes us sicker every week more

the complaining is seen by eyes of judgement without empathy

and that's why we keep on going down

not listening to our head, heart or body

not learning with those big little mistakes that make us drown

not taking a breath where we are most needed 

and we are sick by being over tired

by being out of ourselves more than in 

crying hidden in the bathroom and pretending everything is great and glowing 

for this is called weakness and it is a huge failure for their eyes

and failures are not accepted in this society of ties 

until comes the breakdown 

and there is no more point of return 

we are making us sicker every day more