Relish of the Delight

I did not only see

but I felt the despair in her eyes

a baffled scream inside

not being able to choose anything

or to manage the time

to breathe wholly on her own companion

to appreciate fully this life without limitation

to be pleased again

to remember the long gone

relish of the delight

lost somewhere in the past

just like her self

I did not only notice

but I felt the load on her back

other worlds colliding

her desires and passions imploding

in a way that sadly became usual

despite not being able to rest

but indeed you are doing your best

sticking your feet to the earth

even so missing the state of cloud nine

you had in the days of yore 

and could not realize it would be withdrawn

so soon from your history

Reminder:

keep being this force

keep pouring when you need the most

hold on and dream on

even if everything falls apart again

I wish you love

your independence back

smooth soils

lighter weights and soft white clouds

so be it.