not only by myself

i need to be analysed

not only by myself

but through specialized eyes 

how much I am obsessive

with somethings and someones

when desire, sorrow or denial

become too much for me to bare

when all I do is fiercely care

and I keep on trying to move on

not only by myself

but through friends' eyes

and tarot cards

when deep inside I already know

the answers I need

are right here with me

to then ignore once more

and I keep on trying to set free

from these little obsessions

that moves me intensely

exactly the toxic way I should not admire

when my mind anesthetized

becomes a whole gathering of reveries

so much better than living in the actual world

I need to be analysed

not only by myself

but through candid eyes

how is substantial to unravel

and to accept somethings and someones

that are not in my power to change

to carry on without diving on waters that endanger me

which turn into loss all the process until here

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