Up to the neck

Up to the neck

for the weight of the darkness

of the world

of your own world

down under

while growing older


tired, so tired

you do not want to know

no thing at all about new troubles

a drained man crawls in its own entrails

down under

while falling asleep much deeper 


trying just to

flirt with the idea of death

for the amusement

although the baffled scream for the pain

became such a physical distress to simply move on

so, serious intentions has joined your path


also fears, insecurities

and other kinds of the lack of care

in the search for the love you always wanted

drowning, draining, driving to madness

coming in and out of consciousness

feeling more alive and more dead 

than ever before, each time


you can only live once, they said

what they do not know is

the exhaustion that comes for feeling so tired

seems inevitable and uncontrollable 

that is not just you 

but everything you do feels not enough


and the belief in this will take you to a dead end road

up to the neck so constantly you can not say no

oh and the thrist for life is close to non existent

so, you just surrender and

hold hands to the depression

until one of those is over: it or you.

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