my mind
I keep making idealistic scenarios
Inside my mind
Does not matter the time of the day
It is easy for me to runaway
From the somehow chaotic momentos
Still feeling both together
An escape so dearly
I learned in my years early
Making a routine out of it in my teens
When I could only protect myself
Within these scenarios like shells
Dreaming awake with a better life
Although at times it leaves me frozen
I know it is already inherent
It is never ending
A form of expressing
my utopias and obsessions
I can not deny
Does not matter how I try
This existence in this world
Is too much too handle
To live is to hide
And we need to be our own guide
Because trusting will always be
An unsteady terrain
And another one
of so many scenarios so illusory
I thank for being here despite of all
A friend told me I am too strong, like a wall
Even though thinking I open up too much
No one really knows the seaquake so constant
That happens in my head
That pierces through my heart
That mar, dissolve, reflect
And like the clichê of the Phoenix,
Rise and renew
Yet in melancholy
That dived in duality
Learn from everything, but
attached to that form of escaping,
Reenter the shell to sense some comfort
In the middle of a hurricane of changes
Loving and hating it at the same time
Maybe I am that strong indeed
Because I keep on celebrating being alive
Even though some times only surviving
And I keep on making idealistic scenarios
Inside my mind
For everyone needs a balance
in order to carry on delusionaly sane.
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