best kind of pill

 i may not admit out loud

but in someway i like to suffer for some big handsome lover

seems like the best kind of pill to take 

not exactly an addiction

because it is all the time

just for a night or two or maybe three

i just know it brings the greater pleasure I so crave

I do not need another one to be my other half

for I am my own

but damn i am not an eremit 

sometimes it is not enough only myself

and it is so all right

come closer for a night

or two

if I like you more

maybe three

i fulfill your desires and fantasies and you fulfill mine

after all, why not?

lets bloom together

and release our pollen

until we fall down like dead

mere bodies

dehydrated

resting on top of each other

laughing for nothing

anesthetized

so light

lighter than feather