Elephants

today I died inside

when finally the conversation was done 

I shed a tear unaware 

while trying to focus in things

nothing to do with the elephants over each other chests

yesterday and the day before

I was circling the drain 

inside my mind

thinking of you non stop 

while you were too deep in your entrails 

time is needed

for me to trust on you again

attitudes from you

are important as well for the ruins

to give place to a stronger structure 

because this one,

you know damn well,

is dead so close to the roots 

I was desperate for air

trying in vain not to smother

in my own feelings

and deceptions you brought to the room

you have to see this as it is

because today, for several moments

your actions translated as barely no care at all

I want to see the sun in us again

but I do not believe there is a chance for this now

you need once more to earn my trust

and the place in my heart

I finally woke up from it all but afraid 

that once more this chaos would roam 

over our heads

and feed from our souls

I knew days ago

that something broke 

in the intersection between us

What I could not see

is that was not something

but ourselves along with what we had 

indeed, this storm obliterated us.