I Would Love You If You Were Dead.

Once
You were sweet
Too wary
Now
You are cold
Full of war
Inside
Nothing to gain
just to retain
Empty
as a balloon
but not floatable as.

I would want you by my side
I would miss your face
I would heart you
if you just disappear
from all our lives.

You have eyes, but you do not use them to see.
Only to blind others and yourself.
You believe in it, deeply,
like it was a religion, a fucking dogma.
You have a soul, weak, but with no light.
Only with and for darkness you adore.
You trust in it, and nothing more,
like it was good to bring at least a damn high.

I would wish you were in here
I would need your hand
I would love you
If you were dead.
All over.