women's madness, understood

the controlling

the manipulation

since day one

molded to be the one to care for him

and the frutition of this gathering

never once was put into notice

what she felt, what she truly desire

anything for her own sake

and day by day, left behind more

the spotlight was never on her

on the entire years of extreme mind and heart struggle

since the crib what she knew of life was this

nothing but

to provide the nutrition to the life of the marriage

while he provides the nutrition to their bellies

the promises

the love

was never true

a façade

so she could just depend of their own

i guess i am talking about the routine of that time

in almost every aspect of being a woman

for being a woman was

being a wife, a mother, a house keeper

being a woman did not mean care for her well being

no allowing to liberty

to have iguality

to have any kind of self power

to recognize their worth from inner to outter

for if women could, since back then, handle it all 

imagine if there was conscience of their rights?

the blindfolded

the alienated

version is better to take over

because the solution that is to see

what lied inside of each and every heart of men

aka the permission to feel

was considered failure, a shame

the only real thing that belonged to women but

never bothered to carry the weight of the world for them,

or to try to comprehend what all of this madness can do to a brain

the confined, settled down unfortunate normal way of getting by 

always those hypocrite ironic rules

it is insane and bizarre how twisted men can get

since forever

and blame instinct instead of in fact thinking

that is the heritage

and it is still the reality for a lot of us

to be awesome working machines

to raise families

to be reasonable

to take medicines to get the emotions together,

never once reflected nor understood

transparency and or truth are not options as well known

in fact, not to be humans

for this can evolute the society, the world

and the fear of the future is

something so unmeasurable bigger than

the action of learning with the past

the achievement we got until this very day is great

but at the same time, little

for they are just rights and not a thing beyond

look how many years passed since we got to live on these lands

and the self destruction carries on very much alive

mistakes are not accepted for some

something out of the lines also not

while the ones who actually dictated that does freely

and the good enough feel never takes chance in this cold blooded history

when

is not the question but

if

we will indeed wake up from this broken record

before exploding

i feel it so near

that i can not even catch enough air 

the hope of better days is still lurking in the corners

waiting for its turn to be more than a yearning.