where went to January?

summer came 

along with January

that should be the longest month of the year

after it all, it is the beginning of another one

and, oh, well, summer fucking hot summer 

although it passed like sand between my fingers 

I know I lived it, fiercely

still, I remember little

the memory that stayed

was me working too much

smoking weed to light me down

and caressing and being caressed by my witch sisters cats 

and, as you can see, no writing through 

It all got my mind 

my body

in movement and tire 

cooking inside ideas and sciences

for the long run that will be this year

because changes are going to come

not only I feel it but I need it

or these 10 months and 9 days will smash and smother me

and this is all I do not want

I have decisions to make

in the transition of my 28 to my 29

the beginning of the second biggest planet return for me

this last month 

so long and so fast 

when I did not expect, it took me 

to places even in the core of the routine

of course, always doing something different

because that's who I am and I can not deny

otherwise I would not be breathing consciously 

I know I can not be a robot nor a slave 

I am too awake and too vivid and too rebel for that

that is why this month, even passing running,

was definite 

then came February

the summer met some rains and weather break downs

and I met me in the middle of a rollercoaster

crazy to live another adventure - what they just name year

after all, it is the beginning of another one

and, oh, well, it in fact can not be just another one

must be new, different, to be reminded with joy

even not for the whole

still, it will be that kind of bittersweet I like - as said my intuition loudly inside me