the numbness

 you are so tired

from living anesthetized

inside your chest

every night

in every way

you are so used 

on being this over and done with everything

that you can not even realize

anymore

in your head

it is only a dream to be better

like a parallel universe

you just surrender to the tire

in heart and soul

you became just another one to obey

to be buried half alive

forgotten by yourself

you have forbidden your own self

and blaming the other

like you could not have any control over

you are in love with your abyss

the rock bottom

the depth of the depth

knock knock

are you still there inside?

it is haunting how you left it all to rest

all the insecurities ate you alive

if you are there, open one eye, catch a breath

touch your skin, let the numbness go

troubles are a part of our lives

but to learn with them to pass to the other chapter

not to embrace them forever

there is no use in complain every single day

just wining and doing nothing to get better

not even believe a little

you have a heart, you have a soul

open these black curtains,

see the sunlight and

let it enter the room and you

this self pity will not help you in anything

and no one can save you if you does not allow it

reopen yourself