lonely

 i just seem to be here

but I am only in flesh

the other parts are scattered

wobbling

lonely

 i have not been feeling myself lately

this need inside of being 

phisically

as emotionally

with someone who truly understands it

has overflowed

and all I can do right now

is to be with myself

caressing, spoiling me

distracting from the emptiness so full of anything but what I need

I can do nothing but make me my own shelter

or I will drown into my own flood

let me give me a break

also for these tears 

I am tired of fooling myself

by embracing an unstructured relation

I do not want to be not even close to a dependant 

for someone

I praise liberty and space 

for me and anyone

and I think that only then can exist love

let me give me a break

maybe then, without expecting anything

I may encounter the mutual thrill I crave so.