on your shell

it is insane 

this feeling

I have inside

still

waiting somehow for your time on your shell

yet

my heart want to overcome

to walk forward

for standing still is torturing

walking away seems so pleasant 

all though inviting always the anxiety to play

and that is all what I can not bare

I just want to feel like home on your eyes again

and entwine our hands together 

and talk for hours and hours

not ever getting tired of you

I just do not know what to do

my heart is reckless 

the memory is as fresh as if it happened yesterday 

but buried in feelings like this I can not stay

and I do not know how to be another way

but I want you even on your hopelessness 

and I trying to not think about you

damn it is hard, so hard to

I just do not know what to do 

but to sigh and dream of you