Pity I Can Not Sue You.

I am trying so hard to give you my heart
To allow you entering and make home, sweet home
But I am having difficulties of unfreezing it
For you
- I do not know why - how to surrender to you.
I make myself strong,
But I am nothing more than weak
Needing to freeze my heart
For it not to melt for anyone
Because I do not trust
And I have my reasons, my past.

You did it
You knew how to warm my heart
And make it yours
It was even foolish, but so adult still
Because you have enchanted me with
Looks, touches, words
Security
You made me yours so easily
But again I was late. I should have ran.

And all I did do was stupidly loving you.

The tide you let to come over me
And make me drown
When I just never learned how to swim
In the middle of nowhere
Now here, and it is a pretty pity I can not sue you.
Shame, such a shame for
the one who said was forever taking care of me in my times of need
And look now where and how I was left
With nothing
Because you did not have even the decency to return with my heart.

Oh, I really could put a spell on you
But differently
And wanting
with no pity, no 'buts', no warming
(and no warning)
But all I can see is that fate and life together already did it for me
Such a deserving of yours.
I do not need to worry.

Oh I really could go after her as yourself said
And change her mind
Make it all turn back to how it was before
Even making your life better, if you dare seeing by the details
and step in the direction we wanted from the start
But, I would not, no I could not change selfishly our fortune
The Fates wanted like this.
So I know now it was not supposed to be.
Still I will follow the message of that song
and let it all happen naturally.

Even that all I wanted to now, beyond of having you, is to throw up
Realistically, because I am already doing it now with words.
It is an anguish inside, a blame and such a shame.

And I am tired.
And putting an end on the rest of that line.
It is the maximum it could get.

I am getting over you.