Wishes and Needings.

The one I want here with me now
Is busy, is away, is close still
Inside my confused head
And travelling as in a river with my feelings.

I wish I could stop what he is doing right now
Oh how I wish I had this power
How I wish I could know where he is
How I wish I could harmonize instead of always demonize
How I need to look into his eyes and snuggle in his arms
How I wish not screw it all up
Not to miss
Not to hurt others and not make me in pain
In a severe way, always severe and intense
Because anything I do is intense
So much.
And at times, I loathe deep all this.