(in)dependent

maybe I am too young
to start an important chapter by my own
thinking
I have already this age
and still fighting this hard
my way up to the top
not fucking it all up
I just do not want to go down
no not again
over and done with the memories
and ideas of playing this record once more
all I want is to enjoy my company
working on my living
getting this right
without depending on anyone else
I am so emotionally tired
but maybe I am used to love the rush
and want a little bit too much
for there are experiences
learnings
before I get where I dream so, oh so
to be independent