forgotten.

 you dare to forget me

or to put to sleep

until you may feel ready to face

what is an eternity in here

you left way behind, totally neglecting

not only in memory

and or in the trash bin under 

but in manners and in clothes and 

in the details before so prevalent

now in the lack lurking just watching

screaming without the voice you took away also

the priviledged sidewalk 

and streets

all so planned

the destroying of what was part of something good somehow

to the perfection so superficial

the so-called black out

your mind insist on carrying through the years

to perhaps save you

all though it remains within

as the unanswered question

when there will be the thorough understanding of the subject 'you'?

I am tired of playing hide and seek

I want to play

with your head

and every thing that is dwelling inside here

your fears

your paranoias

your sorrows

your crimes

your lunacy

your traumas

your disorders

your bias

your arrogance

your whole unconscience 

of the life so low and dirty and miserable

outter, the bright you act on stage

you can not even begin to imagine

its cruelest absence of objectivity

how can you live with yourself?

you forgot me 

how can you forget me?

in the higher flame of self hell

I am damned

shattered in a zillion pieces

the guilt should be eating you alive

instead you are dancing 

in the place you think you earned,

you think you deserved

the truth may set you free

still it can leave me stranded

taken from the place I belong too

but your mind is a chest of surprises

in the darkest and deepest and ignored corners

there are thoughts ready to take you out of yourself

to bring out the mad in you

to demonstrate who you really are

in the raw

there is 

me

and you can try anything

to escape

to fight

to hide

still

it is me you will find

still alive,

after everything you might do,

in the very bottom of your end.

i want out

i want to live on your place

i want to meet the surroundings

i want you.

you forgot me

how can you forget me?

i am still here

inside of you

and you can not run away from yourself for too long

sooner or later

you will come back to me

or I will catch you.