waning days

even after the beginning of the weekend was so pleasant,

somewhat surprising,

freeing me from

some insecurities and doubts

still, on sunday I woke up with what it seems no internal light
a tiredness that I could only explain by
the junction of bloody days coming and
the waning moon in its last moments

my soul felt and

took my mind and body

together to rest

while my heart was somehow apathetic 

to do as little as possible
to speak as little as possible
listen to my primary needs
in the form of internal signs and around me

to take care of myself
to give me a break
mainly from the excessive worry
with some reason, but hurting with anxiety

I want to not have these worries anymore
I don't want to feel the despair coming
I want time to lengthen
I don't want these obstacles
I want to reduce idleness
i want the hug of prosperity
i want to feel tranquilty in wholeness.